I met Karen while working at a store in Malibu.

The first thing I said to Karen was, “They’re going to miss you at your job when you’re gone.”

“But, I’m not going anywhere.”

“Well . . . they’re going to miss you when you’re gone because I’m seeing you traveling all over Europe with a new job.”

“No, I’m going to Cape Cod for the week-end.”

“Well, I’m still seeing you traveling all over Europe with a new job.  Now Karen, I don’t want to scare you but I’m getting that you are going to suffer a great loss and that it’s this loss that precedes all these changes.  But, I’m sorry I don’t know what this loss is.  I really don’t want to frighten you or anything, but that’s what I’m getting.”

A few weeks later I saw Karen again at a pool party in Malibu.  She greeted me warmly and then I was very shocked and saddened when she said, “Bea, remember you told me that I was going to go through a very big loss.”

“Yes.”

“Well, a week after our reading my brother committed suicide.”

“Oh Karen, I’m so sorry.  Let me do a reading for you right now.”

I spread the cards on the table.  “First of all, I’m getting that you are going to move.”

“No, I have no plans to move.”“Listen Karen, I really want to be able to focus on you because this is a very serious issue and this party environment is not the best place to focus.   I would like to gift you a full session with me.  Can you come over to my house?  I would also like to guide you on a meditation and maybe your brother will show up in your vision.”

Karen came to my home the following day.  I spent several hours with her and it was a truly special experience.  Suicide is not an easy subject to understand.  I have felt the desire myself on many occasions in my life.  It is very hard to deal with pain, especially for highly sensitive people.  I would like people to get a new perspective on this “last resort” and understand that when someone makes that choice they do not go straight to hell.  On the contrary they go to heaven, get a new plan together and eventually come back.  You really do have to create heaven on earth before permanently moving beyond the cycles of death and rebirth to reside in a permanent state of heavenly bliss and oneness with all that is.  That state of bliss can be achieved here and now.

I want to share a very interesting part of Karen’s guided meditation.  My desire is to show you that there is a place of knowing within us that is beyond our limited mind.  This is what she described she saw in her vision.

“I see a cave with a wide opening.  I can’t see very well because it’s dark, but there is fresh air.  It’s not scary.  Inside there is a glow, a golden ball.  It’s starting to grow.  It’s casting light all around.  There is a design, a pretty pattern with diamonds and lots of geometric shapes and circles in gold leaf.  It’s very bright and cheerful.  I see a woman in a white flowing robe.  Her hair continuously changes from brown to silver.  Her name is Jill.  She holds a book in her hands, a book with stories in it.  It’s old.  It’s ancient.  She says it’s a key to my past.  She says “Romulus.”  She wants me to know it’s not going to happen again.  She gives me a red cloth made of silk.  It has a design of Olive tree branches on it.  Yes, it’s Olive tree branches.  She wants me to know that I can come back if I need to and to remember the golden light.  She says that I don’t have to hide anymore.”

I could barely keep still I was so excited by what I had just heard.  When we finished the first thing I asked was “Karen, do you know who Romulus was?”

“No.”

“You have no idea who Romulus was?”

“No.”

“Remus and Romulus.”

“No Bea.  I have no idea.”

“Karen, Romulus was the founder of Rome.  Remus and Romulus were brothers and the story goes that wolves raised them and as adults Romulus eventually killed his brother then founded Rome.  Just like Cain and Abel and it’s been brother against brother ever since.  So the Goddess said, “Romulus, it’s not going to happen again.”  To me this means the imbalance caused by male domination of the female all over the world in these patriarchal times is coming to an end.  The global state of constant violence and war we’ve experienced for thousands of years is coming to an end and it’s not going to happen again.

The balance of male and female needs to be understood to bring peace to the planet.  I teach about the Ancient Goddess and what you saw is an amazing vision of the Goddess and many of her symbols.  The cave is a symbol of your heart and the golden light revealed diamond shapes and diamond literally means “World Goddess.”  Circles are a symbol of wholeness.  In this case the wholeness which is found within your heart.  Then a Goddess woman appeared and she said “My name is Jill” and Jill means “innocent” because the Goddess is innocent. Jill’s hair turns from brown to gray symbolizing the “Triple Goddess -Virgin, Mother and Crone which represent the cycles of life, the beginning, the middle and the end as well as the phases of the moon.  The new moon, the full moon and the waning moon.

Next she gives you an ancient book and a red silk scarf with Olive tree branches. The ancient book means she wants you to learn and communicate ancient wisdom in some way, perhaps even write about it.  The scarf is also indicative of communication and Olive tree branches are a Greco-Roman symbol which represents “The Peace of the Goddess.”  Clearly, you were a Roman Priestess because she says the book is a key to your past, but women like us were persecuted which is why you hide in this life.  I hide too believe me.  In fact, I hardly ever leave my house.”

Karen was a bit taken aback that what she saw had so much meaning.

“Wow Bea, that’s pretty amazing.”

“Well, so are you.  Now you did see your brother and let me read back what you saw.

“I go up the path of clouds.  I see my brother Mark.  He keeps saying “Karen, you’re awesome.  Don’t be scared.  It’s all good.”  He’s so happy.  He looks so young and so much better.  He takes me to a white beach with really clear blue green water and cliffs nearby.  Mark wants me to take some time.  He says, “Let the water wash over you and let the sun warm you and let the shade protect you.”  He says, “Go inside, so you can come out.  Go inside yourself.”  He wants me to write his story.  Mark wants me to remember the sparkle, what it meant . . . the sparkle in his eye.”

Shortly after this session Karen left her job as manager of a restaurant and got a new job which took her traveling all over Europe, then she moved to Poland to oversee the building of a multiplex movie theatre

In December of ’99, I was just awakening and I heard someone say “Beatrice, remember me, Sparkle, sparkle in my eye.”

Telepathically I said, “Yes, you’re Karen’s brother.  How can I help you?”

“Can you please tell my sister it’s O.K. for her to come back to Los Angeles.”

“Yea sure, no problem.”

I got a call from Karen the following day.  Before she could say a word I said to her, “Karen, your brother came to me yesterday and asked me to tell you that it was O.K. for you to come back to Los Angeles.”

“Bea, that’s so weird because I called you yesterday to ask you just that question and your voicemail picked up and I hung up, but that’s why I’m calling you.”

“Well, I just answered your question.  Your bro sends his love and says, “Come on home sista!”

I heard him loud and clear.  He said “Remember me, Sparkle, Sparkle in my eye.”

Karen said, “Oh my God Bea! That was his nickname.  That’s what we used to call him, Sparkle.”